Thursday, June 28, 2007
怎样...短短两个星期,生活起了许多变化,让我有些喘不过气. 不论是在工作上或在私生活上,忽然之间都变得很忙. 忙代表着有了新的机会,意味着我的眼前出现了许多扇开着的门,等待着我的选择. 我一直都在寻求的机会一时之间都并列在眼前,但我反而感觉到一阵彷徨,不知所措...怎么你都不在...?我是否已经准备好去迎接这一切新的挑战?只有努力努力,再接再厉...
我这里天快要黑了 那里呢
我这里天气凉凉的 那里呢
我这里一切都变了我变的懂事了
我又开始写日记了 而那你呢
我这里天快要亮了 那里呢
我这里天气很炎热 那里呢
我这里一切都变了 我变的不哭了
我把照片也收起了 而那你呢
如果我们现在还在一起会是怎样
我们是不是还是深爱着对方
像开始时那样 握着手就算天快亮
我们现在还在一起会是怎样
我们是不是还是隐瞒着对方
像结束时那样 明知道你没有错
还硬要我原谅
我不会原谅 我怎么原谅
Ate Apple Pie@
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Monday, June 11, 2007
In Loving Memory of My Ah Gong
My Ah Gong passed away this fateful afternoon, about 10hours ago. It's hard to accept him lying motionless on the bed when I see this photograph which was taken a few years ago during my uncle's wedding dinner. I will never forget the scene of him in that room with his covered body, eyes closed, and the medical apparatus sticking out of his mouth.
Even though I wasn't particularly close to him (in fact, we didn't ever speak much), it was still a painful reality to accept. It's ironic, when I recall that the longest time I ever spent with him alone was actually last Monday at the hospital where we chatted for about an hour about my job, when for the first (and unfortunately, last) time, I held him as he made his way to the gents. Come to think of it, it seemed that I hardly expressed any of such caring gestures when he was well, except for during the occasional visits during festive seasons. :(
Cliche as it may seem, it struck me hard that I should always treasure the people around me before they are gone. To be generous with my expressions of love and affection, no matter how small/simple the act may be.
Ah Gong, wah si ah fen...wah wu xion dio ler, ler zai ya bo? (Grandpa, I am Ah-Fen...I thought of you, do you know that?)
Ate Apple Pie@
Monday, June 11, 2007
Monday, June 04, 2007
Caught In The Rat RaceDue to the gradual professionalism in my work, I had thought (for a moment) I was ascending the "corporate" ladder.Well, I was disillusioned soon enough when I realised my peer(s) is earning a lot more than me. They always say that as long as you have the passion, you will pursue your dream. And according to Maslow, this is under the Growth Need of Self Actualization.And as far as I know, I'm still dealing with the lower rungs of need:1. My Cognitive Need which requires me to pursue my dream so as to satisfy it.2. My Safety Need which includes security of revenues and resources.And I need to satisfy my Need #2 so as to achieve my Need #1. So tell me, am I passionate enough about my needs? Ergh...
Ate Apple Pie@
Monday, June 04, 2007
